Monday, December 22, 2008
sigh.
don't know why i'm feeling so down.
dementors?
like i can never be happy again.
cheer up, dot, smile! (:
you're singing carols later.
you should do so with a cheerful heart.
maybe i'm about to have my thing.
lol.
PMS.
♥ chased chase @
12:33 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
hee think u kinda decided already right? just need to think about how to approach ur pres. :X good luck yea. (:
fishball but..
I miss our midnight randomness and artistic photoshoots. :(
Remember the playground we passed on the way to the SUN with feng that time?
I wanna go there play and take nice artistic playground photos.
The next time you're in hall let's go do that k? (:
u went to the Japan media festival again on Sunday?
I recommanded to my friends, they went and said it was too crowded to try the different games and stuff. and the curators couldn't explain stuff either because there were too many people.
I'm glad we went on Friday! and played all the Wii games haha!
anyway are you free tml 18th December? (:
Just trying my luck, you busy gal! hahaha
I miss u lah.
and and and when are u going to bring me to the printing lab and teach me how to do the thinner thing!
let's do our cards together! (assuming you haven't finish them lah haha)
ohya, chase seemed to be getting thinner.
dunnno why. LOL!
kkkk think I should get going for the Xmas party preparation!
♥ chased chase @
3:55 PM
why i should stay in ntuband1) responsibility as pnp; i'll feel very irresponsible if i leave. who's gonna take over me if i leave?
2) bandmates will be disappointed in me, especially my section-mates & the exco members.
3) a chance to pursue musical excellence twice a week; can improve in my playing
4) netherlands.
5) who knows? maybe i'll find close friends in band over the years?
why i shouldn't stay in ntuband1) ADM saps away too much of my energy every week. by the time i go for band, i'll be too tired already. but unlike band, ADM stuffs are compulsory.. it's my education and i can't abandon it.
2) i want to be more committed in church; the kingdom of God is way more important than any thing else.
3) i could use the band prac time to do my work, so that i don't have to work till late all the time. I ALWAYS HAVE NOT ENOUGH TIME TO FINISH MY WORK SIAN.
4) i have choir prac on fri nights; but because of band prac on sat, i'm forced to return back to hall for an extra day. it's quite lonely sometimes. and the fact that there's prac the next morning makes it almost impossible to get much work done. if no ntuband, i can go home right after choir!
5) i want to join saints alumni band; it's on sat nights & the location's near my house. lugging my instrument all the way to potong pasir won't be that much of a problem. and and, i want to join because of friends there. and in sajcband, i learnt that it's important that you play the music for the people you love.
6) i can keep my instrument at home! (: next time if not staying hall, do i have to lug my instrument all the way to ntu every week? damn heavy please.
7) i want to keep up with my sax lessons with jefferson. it's gonna be real tough if i always keep the instrument in hall due to ntuband.
8) i don't feel at home in ntuband; don't feel close with anyone. actually if there're people i love in the band, all of the above won't really matter that much to me. you know what i mean.
9) basically i just don't feel happy staying in ntuband.
♥ chased chase @
3:25 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
oh my roomie thanks!
that's great advice/sharing. (:
ohwell.
guess i'll just see how things go when school starts.
anyway i should be going hall on tues night.
staying over till wed.
will you be there?
you have the christmas party on wed night right?
i have cca. =X
btw i went for the japan media arts festival again.
mwahaha.
played wii again. as usual. LOL.
fun fun fun! :D
♥ chased chase @
9:10 PM
hey roomie,
a looooong time ago,
I was actually warned about it by gary tang and seniors in theatre club nanyang.
Many said that they won't join theatre again in JC, because they know that it would definately be different, and they don't want it to ruin their passion for theatre. Its about keeping beautiful memories the way they are.
I didn't really get it at that time, I thought passion is just going for it no matter what.
I joined theatre again.
I would say that tcn definately hold the fondest memories. The bonds with people and the whole are the closest too.
theatre experiences in jc are more technical, its good in the sense that performing skills definately improved. There are more exposures, more variety, more opportunities. But also more politics and more competitions.
The magical feeling that was always there no matter what role I played backstage or acting in TCN is no longer the same.
Times I wondered, would it be better if I followed the path of most of my tcn seniors.
Ultimately I think I learned that passion for a craft should not be affected by the people involved, although it still does to a certain extent la. perhaps thats why I'm still enthu abt joining theatre stuff tho Im now aware of the many potential politics and stuff in it. But like what tang used to say, its passion that brings and unites every diverse person together. especially when performing arts people tend to have strong personalities and sense of self.
seriously why stay if you're unhappy? sure there's the responsibility..but sometimes I guess you need to watch out and care more for yourself than others.. society seemed to mould people into that anyway.
to sum it up..dont think so much and just go with your heart! (:
PS: when are u coming back to hall?! miss ya!
♥ chased chase @
12:27 AM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
no worries dear.
i bought the tix so YAY,
blueoranges are gonna watch "Do Not Disturb" next sunday!
i promise to blog here more frequently.
my last post was in september oops!
anyway roomie i'm in a deep dilemma sigh.
you know what..
i don't really feel like staying in ntuband anymore.
stupid right.
i feel like joining the saints alumni band instead.
the pracs are every sat night.
you see.. i feel more at home in the saints band.
my good friend (who's playing the sax) wants to join too.
and i want to join with her!
many of my juniors are there as well!
cos you know, i'll feel much happier when i'm playing with people i truly care about.
but in ntuband.. RAWR i don't feel close to anyone.
esp in my section.
i don't look forward to band pracs anymore.
it's really damn sad.
and so different from my time in sajcband, when i looked forward to almost every prac.
but now i can't join both ntuband & alumni band
cos it'll be too tiring for me.
my entire sat will be swamped with band.
and you know how hiong my course is (esp sem 2).
sian la i don't feel like staying in ntuband anymore.
but i can't just quit like that.. cos i'm the pnp person.
ARGH.
maybe i'll leave after my pnp stint is over.
then go join alumni :D
sorry.
just ranting alot here.
i've been feeling so so troubled over this for quite long alr.
OOPS JUST REALISED THIS IS SO PERSONAL.
i hope no one from band ever reads this.
this.. personal dilemma. lol.
on a side note:
i have something else to tell you!
but this is way too personal to write here heh.
tell you when i see you.
♥ chased chase @
10:09 PM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Okies, I finally here to revive this blog HAHA.
went to Cityhall today, they shifted the conceige!
and and I wanted to buy the tickets for roomie and I,
but was utterly embarrassed and shocked when the guy calculated and came up with a grand total of $66. I think.
eeks, cos I didn't have enough cash on me.
and I can't redraw money either.
so uhh roomie we don't have the tixs yet.
I asked and he did say there's quite a lot of tickets available tho, so it should be okay. (:
Been going out everyday the past week.
But this coming week dont really have much plans.
But blueoranges do have a date on Friday! yayness(:
Christmas is coming soon! and then..RESULTS would be out. I'm scared, cos I think I screwed up bad. but what to do. one week to get over the post-results depression and then..school will start again!
♥ chased chase @
2:20 AM
